To My Friend, I Hope You Know Who You Are

As You Have Done For Me

So strong, your calm face

Tears behind your smile

They fall silently

when I am not around to see

not there to empathize

How can I be consoled

when I so want to console? 

So strong, you're so calm

always knowing what to say

or when just to be.

Let me be there for you

to understand

instead of being understood

So strong, the strength you have

it amazes me

Never a trace of cruelty

Always so giving of your soul

I wish I could be that strong

to keep your sorrow

at bay with my

tempest weary candle
Take that from me,
Give me that at least.
When you smile,

Your eyes spill light

all over me

I'm sorry mine was never bright enough

to keep or help you out of the dark

As yours has always done for me

Faded Memories and Beauty

When I saw you today

My heart strings yanked your memory from

the overlooked and disregarded shelf of my mind

And though it was dusty, it was still there;

All the laughter of our school days,

Like faded construction paper.

The old pictures of us,

 long yellowed with age,

The cobwebs could not hide its beauty;

or the scent that enveloped me

 the way your hugs used to

Smelling like the ocean and sprinkled with sand.

It all made me wish I could go back,

Every time I have failed to stop myself from glancing behind,

You have been there.

Though now we both no longer feel the same inside

and whatever feelings we had for each other

have long since died

You have your new life and friends now

As I have mine

I know we can never go home again,

but

You will always have that place in my mind

On the shelf filled with

Faded Memories and Beauty

Work in progress:

By Me

We Are Happier Together

Though no one else remembers the past that scared our hearts

I know,

And you will never forget.

And that will be enough, I guess.

At least together we can have truth

Which no one else seems to share.

I know how you lived,

Alone, Broken, Lost

And I know you hate self pity.

You know me,

Wounded,

How I was never enough (or so I was told)

What does it matter if it was never true

When her ruler measures me still

We are both so damaged

You and I

Yet through the fragments

We found laughter in each other

Even if Laughter makes the sadness worse when

it inevitably comes

Just like it's so much darker when a light goes out

Than if it had never shone.

You toss your head and laugh

For that second I am with you,

Everything is perfect

We are happier together

We radiate light

Keeping sorrow and darkness at bay as long as we can

Hold tight; Against the shadows to this moment

And your breath

By: Me

The Night Does Not Wish To Come

The Night Does Not Wish to Come

So that You can not come

and I can not go

But You will come with your eyes

burned by the Rain.

The Day Does Not Wish to Come

So that You can not come

and I can not go

But You will come thought blinded

by Darkness

Neither Night nor Day wishes to come

So that I may Die for You and for me.......

I wrote this poem so long ago that the scrap of paper I wrote this on has yellowed with age. To be honest I only remember writing the ending of the poem and then misplacing it and forgetting about it only to have it resurface. It has since become one of the works I am proudest of. Even if the only commendation is in my mind, I love this poem